Discovery of Music through my eyes....and some extra, random, everyday stuff I find that makes life interesting. I'm not as cool as I don't think I am, and I like to produce sound through my vocal chords.
Sometimes, people want to know why I’m wary of other gay men. Where do I even start? Well, I’m sick of this whole mentality in the gay male community where you’re only valuable if you’re drop dead gorgeous. You either have to be skinny enough to look like a twink or you have to do enough sit-ups a day to have six-pack abs with massive biceps and pecs to boot. Everything is always based on the two simple factors of both wanting to fuck and wanting to become the idolized picture of a (typically masculine) gay male-bodied individual. But honestly, let’s not even kid ourselves and say ‘individual,’ because the mainstream gay culture teaches you to be anything but yourself. It teaches you to lock your real self away in the basement, save face, and turn every aspect of your life - both for your physical self and your personality - toward one goal; becoming ‘desirable.’ I think that the mainstream gay male community is about erasing yourself and putting, in its place, a stereotype, a mirror image of the models and mentalities sent down to us from generation to generation from media to individual until we value that bullshit more than any form of authenticity, reality, and - in a lot of cases - any trace of ‘femininity.’ Some people make snide comments about me, say that the only reason I feel this way is because I’m too idealistic, too uptight, both of which are probably the result of me still being a virgin. These people tend to be other gay males. Well you know what? Fuck you, because, if you took the time to think about it, I’m still a virgin because I think most of the gay male community is filled with assholes that follow this mentality and I want nothing to do with it. And I’d rather not be just another notch on the bed-post of someone so hollow. I wouldn’t fit in with you, anyway. I have holes in my face. I don’t like to trim my beard. My skin will probably be entirely covered in colors one day. I don’t have the perfect body-type. I’m emotionally honest. I’m passionate about a lot of things that people don’t care about, especially not most other gay men. I’m not a huge fan of calling everyone ‘bitches.’ I’m not interested in moving to New York City and becoming a bougie architect, engineer, businessman, or any other sell-out career that screams “I think I’m a powerful and visionary individual but mostly, I just want the money to afford Dolce, Prada, and an expensive and extravagant life.” I don’t want to be looked at like that, or to exist to be revered as an icon, a model for people to follow. That’s not me. I want to be part of a community, but not this one, because you run everyone else out. You don’t deserve to be called a community - you’re a troupe of unwelcoming, narcissistic, elitist media products, and frankly, you don’t deserve anything until more people wake up and start calling you out on your shit. I could write pages, explaining everything behind my common statement of, “I hate the mainstream gay male community,” but honestly, if you sit back and look at it, even from the outside, I think you’ll start to notice what I’m talking about.
Truth.
istolethorodinson replied to your chat: Hipster: Oh, I’m so artsy with my HD pictures of…
THEN GO READ A GODDAMN BOOK.
| Hipster: | Oh, I'm so artsy with my HD pictures of buttoned up shirts, lions and deep, emotional things |
| 12 yr old: | ONE DIRECTION FIVEEVER!!!! LOLZZ LOVE LIAM AND ZAYN AND HARRY<333333 |
| Other Blogs: | "What is life? What even? I can't breathe. I'm. Dying. gjfsdaythdg;lbajfasdhfjfh" |
| Me: | I could be reading a book right now...... |
